Settling in...

Well, its been 6 days since Lliam has joined our family. It has definately been a different (read: easier and better) experience! He's taken to nursing quite well, and I am too if I do say so myself. I was bound and determined to soley and exclusively breastfeed Lliam. How rewarding it is!!! The bonding has been super. With Anthony, I didn't really know what I was doing, I had no support, and I ended up getting a bad case of Post Partum Depression. I am so grateful that I am blessed with a super baby and a great little man to help me out at home. I would have like 10 kids if they were all this great! Anthony is adjusting as well as he can. He doesn't really like other people holding Lliam..."Don't take the baby" or "Give him back to Mommy!!" are his reactions to people taking Lliam from me.

I went into the office today to introduce Lliam to everyone. We heard lots of cooing and congrats. I met a friend and mom for Vietnamese for lunch. Mmmmm noodles!

Nothing really new is happening in our house, other than new babyness etc. Jos and I bought a Wii, and Anthony has continually beat us in bowling! Quite fun being beaten by a 3 yr old! I figure that if I really get into the Wii, I can lose some more weight and gain some of my muscle back. It was sad to realize that I lost a ton of muscle weight with this pregnancy. I will be buying some handweights tomorrow so I can start my toning routine.

I can't wait to start losing the flab. I feel like a squishy milk cow right now. Oh well, the sacrifices we make as mothers to bring children into this world. Its all worth it!

Booyah!

Lliam Avery finally arrived, May 24th @ 11:28am weighing in at 8lbs 1oz. We are home now, happy, healthy and feeling amazing! I wish they all went that smooth....!!!

A hard passing

Well, its been a rough week. It didn't end very well. My grandmother (my mother's mother) has passed away today. I wish I had a pic to post here, and I'm sure I'll find one somewhere. She was a very elegant lady, mink coats, diamond earings, crystal chandelier type. She loved her family very much. She lost her husband 10 years ago, and had been barely holding on to life since then. So needless to say its been a hard 10 years of slow death, by not eating, sleeping and falling down whenever she could.

Mom raced outta the house here at 6:30pm to speed down to Cardston to say goodbye to her mother at 10:00pm (when she passed). I can't help compounding my guilt here. Mom dropped everything in Cardston to be with me and help me have the baby (If she was still in Cardston, she'd make sure her mother was eating and staying healthy, or even just spending more time with her before her inevitiable passing) and still no baby, and she only had like an hour to be with her mother before she passed away.

I hate funerals, they make me so uncomfortable. I hate death, its not something I can control. I hope I have the baby before the funeral, because I can't really do much travelling in the condition I"m in.

The one thing that is bringing me peace is that Grandma is now with Grandpa again. I'm sure it was quite the reunion.

Rest in peace Grandma Schaffer.

Still Pregnant

I know this thing doesn't last forever...I really don't want to post this, but so many people are wondering...I'm still pregnant! I will post when I've given birth w/ pictures and everything.

I feel depressed, and want to cry all day long.

I think this kid either hates me, and trying to punish me.
This kid loves me and wants to stay in there as much as possible.
Or Heavenly Father just wants to keep him a little longer up there because he so special.

All I know is that I'm still pregnant, and sad, and tired, and tired of all this guilt. Guilt that my mother sped all the way up here to help out with the baby, guilty that my sweetest girlfriend is watching Anthony for me, while we "think" we are in labor. I think she's got enough on her plate, like I need to add to it. The least I can do is produce a baby.


I'm bawling as I right this, I'm too emotional to finish.

4min apart!

I went out to dinner with Jos, and it was just him and me. I haven't had a date with him in YEARS!!! It was disrupted by going into labor. VERY RAPIDLY...I'm laboring at home as much as I can...before we go to the hospital.

Wish me luck

A May Long Hike

I figured we'd spend the day as a family trying to expand the family (ie, bringing the labor on) by taking a family hike to Nose Hill Park. Anthony was less than enthused, and I was VERY uncomfortable, but we all managed, and actually had a great time. At the very begining AJ was pretty excited....see below picture of him running ahead of me. Yeah, he's that little grey blob in the distance....That sorta changed quickly.

Anthony sorta boobed out by the middle, and wanted to be carried. It being his first hike, I didn't think he did too bad. We made him walk on his own until we were ready to turn around and head back. This is his boob face he likes to make for me and daddy.

Anthony must have been sitting on something prickly in that photo. LOL

SOOOO CUTE!!!

I hope we get some action soon. LOL I'm gettig really puffy! The 19th has always held a special place in our hearts...here's hopin' I get some action tonight. Read into that ALL you like!! Enjoy my video as well....its of AJ thinking he's run to the finish line....he saw the orange fencing, thinking it was the finish line of our hike.

Someone in our house gave Birth!!!

Ok so it wasn't me. It was our very pregnant guppy. She managed to push out 7 little guys that are SOOO CUTE. I'll have pics ready in a bit. We are just getting ready for church.

Maybe this full moon might bring me some good news!