A little here, a little there

Its been a whole week now of de-cluttering my house. I'm thinking it will take me about a month to fully do what I want to this place. I've made a dent in my efforts and can really see progress. I can't wait for it to get to a point where cleaning is actually FUN and not a chore. Where my space is a place where I can feel peace, and tranquility (as much as Whitehorn can offer right? :P)

My back yard is still in dis-array though

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Let me remind you, that this stuff isn't mine. Its my brothers stuff. About 1/4 of this mess has been taken away to the dump and "moved around" but its still quite the mess. I can't wait until there is a back yard where my little boys can play in. Its so scary and full of cans of chemicals and waste! I don't go out there, EVER! Its his crap, I think he should deal with it. But on the other hand, if I ever want to use this backyard SOMEONE has to start somewhere right?! ARGH

This week just seem to fly by! We had our 8GV night, and that was a super HOOT! I just love those girls, and was able to laugh until tears flew down my cheek. How blessed am I that I have such a fun group of girls to tell all my dirty (yes, I mean dirty dirty) secrets too! They know pretty much all there is about me, or at least they know a WHOLE LOT about me so far. I'm an open book (hence me starting this blog) and I don't mind sharing at all about my crazy life.

I spent most of my weekend watching my cousin Kenny play in the World's softball tournament. They didn't win a single game! It was cold, windy and pretty miserable. I'm glad to be able to come home and enjoy a hot bath, and use my new facial products! I spent about $250 on them from this really super Israeli salesman. He sure knows how to sell a good package! (deal that is)

Some pretty great products, I must say!

I'm really looking forward to this week. Monday is our ward Corn Bust and completing my main floor of decluttering, and tuesday I'm driving down to Lethbridge to be with my sisters for some fun sisterly time! Then on friday night I'm headed down South with my best girlies for some giggly fun time at a RS retreat! WOOT! Who can stay depressed with fun times like these?

Clean Sweepin'

I'm one more step closer to being 100%, in fact, I think I'm already there, and headed to 110%. My mom came into town this past weekend. Normally I'd have some sort of anxiety about it. I stress about how clean my house is, or how hubby is going to get along, or what sort of miscommunication will happen that will result in a fight or something. But over the last few visits I've had with her, we've been able to resolve a few issues that have been lingering. Its nice to just release those hard feelings. She's introduced me to Louise Hay's "You can Heal your life"

I have watched the DVD, and now reading the book. So far so good. It teaches you how to do some affirmations (telling yourself positive things), and how to release the past and past feelings etc. WOW. Like I said, so far so good.

Mom and I got to talking, and we managed to have a feel-good emotional release session. After that conversation, a flood of emotion took over. I started to change my outlook on a few things. I started looking around my own house for things that I could make better. So, I made a list. Here is my list of things I want to accomplish:

- Be more active outdoors
- Be more Oraganized
-(I changed to "I will" statements after this)
- I will be a more organized person
- I will clean/de-clutter something from my house daily
- I will not be comfortable in my misery
- I will be happy and surround myself with happy people
- I will think positive
- I will stop making excuses when I want to change or fix something in my life
- I will organize and prepare healthy meals daily
- I will set aside an hour each day for myself (read, work out, nap)

We spent the whole day yesterday de-cluttering. We cleaned out the spare room, and made it a playroom for Anthony as well as the spare room. No more toys upstairs in my living room!! We cleaned, and organized, and emptied those nasty "last second packing" boxes that have a ton of crap in them. I collected my empty rubbermaid bins, and filled them with stuff that normally cluttered my house. I now have a storage space under my stairs, so I put that to good use. How refreshing it feels to clean sweep, not just your house, but your life! I have put away feelings that have been so close to the surface for years, that it actually feels like I lost 5 lbs!

I'm so glad that I have a great mom that is striving to be a better person, and helping me along the way to be a better person. We've always been close, and there was about a 10 yr period where we weren't very close, and now things are so good between us. She helps me with my kids, she's a hard worker, she's a great person to talk to, she's a great mother.

Then to top off my day, we called a TV repairman, and finally fixed our messed up TV. It set us back $300 cash, but it was well worth it. Instead of going into debt and buying another dream TV, we repaired this one. WOW, seeing the Olympics is wonderful now. No more 3-D vision.

Life is seeming a lot better now. ;)

A little Meme for ya'll to comment on....

Here's how it works:

1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew/know me a little or a lot, anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you (if you really don't want to play but still want to leave a comment, just leave a comment and then tell me that you would rather not play)

Getting Better

Well, I didn't get my puppy. I felt that the money could go for other smart things. But, seriously, I wanted him...its just a matter of time before we can get the puppy we want at the right time.

I've been so busy family reunioning, having fun days with Anthony and Lliam, its been great! I truly feel like I'm getting better, I'm not there 100% yet, but getting there. My house still needs to be tended to, but both kids are demanding my attention opposite one another. There are worse things in life than a messy house, and clean unfolded laundry. I could be depressed with a messy house and dirty laundry! LOL

Last friday, we had my sister come into town for a mini vacation. Her and her family took me and my boys to Calaway Park. It was a hot day, but oh so fun. The boys loved it. I feel so awful that our boys are such shrimps that they couldn't go on even half the kiddie rides. Then later on in the evening, we all went to Chuck E Cheese. Very Fun. I haven't been to a CEC, for about 18 years! It was no where near as creepy as when I was a kid. Those Mousy Anamatronic musicals were freaky!!! A long day, was welcomed by a long sleep!

Then the following day, we went to the zoo with all the kids again. We got there at 9am, and stayed until 2pm! We saw all the exhibits. It was a little disappointing that when we went through the African exhibit, that the hippos and girraffs weren't out in their pens. We saw THE cutest baby gorilla! OH my, it was so cute! So amazing how the mother can carry it around with ease and accuracy. I love nature!

I've got quite the sunburn, that's now a perfect farmer's tan. But it was fun times. The weekend before last was our Jensen Family reunion in Cardston. As tradition goes, we always attend the family softball tournament. The rules state that there must be at least 2 female players on the team playing. On friday night, there were no girls but my cousin Laura (who hardly played in her life, if ever) and myself (just had a baby just weeks ago, and totally out of shape and squishy) Yeah, we lost all of our games! I hope next year I am more in shape to get the job done! A vicious ball player! We also watched the Heritage days Parade in Cardston. I happend to meet up with Marci and her new hubby Andrew. Very fun times, and I was so happy to spend time with them. Anthony had such a blast chasing down all the thrown candy from the floats! During our last ball game, I got to hook up with Cyn. Her daughter just fell in love with Lliam. I was so flattered that he's the cute baby he is LOL. I made a purchase at Cyn's mom's store in Cardston. Actually, it was something that I've been chasing down for months now. :D

We had our Jensen Family reunion right after that last ball game. It was so fabulous to see all our family Grandma's new house. We had a great BBQ in the back yard, and was so great to see cousins that I haven't seen in years. I love my family and my heritage. Isn't it nice to be proud of who you are and where you come from?

Depression?

I've been trying to fight this, but I fear that it might be setting in. The Big "D". Depression. It sucks. I've been feeling happy for many months now, and not liking this cloudy feeling AT ALL. Hubby is doing all he can, really, to help me with this. He wants me to kick this as much as I do. No one wants a depressed, negative person around them all the time. I've been trying a few things that I know that works for me. Its helped a bit. But I think I needed something a little more.

This is what I think I need:



I might fly out to get him as soon as next week. Or he'll be shipped to me, depending on what the shipping costs are. If they are the same for me to pick him up, I'll just fly down to Arizona and pick him up. His name is Archer, and Jos and I have been wanting a Mini Cocker Spaniel for months now. I came into some inheritance money, and I'm thinking that this is how I want to spend it. Something just for me. The cat we have is the family cat, but I got him just for Jos. So this puppy would be just for me. He's the runt of the litter, and as he's already a Mini Cocker Spaniel, he'd still be a small little sucker. He's so cute and oh so loveable. I'm putting my deposit on him this afternoon. WOOT.

Cardston Bound

Well, this week seemed to have zoomed by. Anthony had his 4th birthday. He helped bake and ice his cake. Of course for my choco-holic son it was a chocolate fudge cake with chocolate icing and rainbow sprinkles. I know it doesn't sound like much (I'll post pictures soon) but he really had a great time helping me make it. He was so happy to have a birthday for himself. He normally is the cutie pie that calls up family members on their birthday to sing them "Happy Birthday". So we sung for him, and he was a happy camper.

Today, I'm packing and leaving for Cardston. I have a family softball tournament I'm playing in. My first game is at 5:15pm at Lions Park. I'm a little nervous, as my family (ie. Uncle Gibb) is really competitive, and I just had a baby, and super mooshy and out of shape. I really hope I don't embarass the family as bad as I do every year. I'm the one striking out, falling on my face running to first base etc. I should just walk around wearing a helmet full time, I swear!

I'm still trying to shake my negative feelings off me 100%, and its still hard to. I'm a postitive person and with such a 'gift' I try and radiate my positive-ness. I feel like there's a dark cloud always following me. Is depression sinking in again? I normally can detect it, and nip it before it gets pretty bad. I know I need love, girlfriends, horseback riding, hiking and being out doors to help with it. So I know what I'm doing when I get back from Cardston.

I'm down 18 lbs, and that is helping my self esteem a little bit. Now i need to work on the smoosh. Build muscle, etc.

One more Family Reunion to Go!

I just got back from the Findlay reunion in Medicine Hat. It was much smaller than usual, as so many people happened to be busy this time around. It was Jos and I representing the Jensen's at the reunion. It was great to talk and catch up, and "re-get-to-know" all the 2nd and 3rd cousins again. The weather was alright. We saw some rain, some sun, some clouds and we were just content in our new Superstore tent ($49.99 special for a 7-man) its pretty neato.

I am so lazy, I didn't take any pictures of this reunion. But be sure, I will take pictures of the Jensen one this weekend. Its a Family softball tournament and the Jensen reunion. My most favorite of them all. Its my grandfather's children, and their children. I love how each year it gets bigger and bigger with all the new kiddies! I love that I'm finally contributing to the kiddie-count.

I'm feeling much better than last week. Thank goodness. No more milk issues. I'm so glad to be healthy again. Woot!

I desperately need to clean my house, organize, and get ready for another reunion this weekend in Cardston.