Settling in...

Well, its been 6 days since Lliam has joined our family. It has definately been a different (read: easier and better) experience! He's taken to nursing quite well, and I am too if I do say so myself. I was bound and determined to soley and exclusively breastfeed Lliam. How rewarding it is!!! The bonding has been super. With Anthony, I didn't really know what I was doing, I had no support, and I ended up getting a bad case of Post Partum Depression. I am so grateful that I am blessed with a super baby and a great little man to help me out at home. I would have like 10 kids if they were all this great! Anthony is adjusting as well as he can. He doesn't really like other people holding Lliam..."Don't take the baby" or "Give him back to Mommy!!" are his reactions to people taking Lliam from me.

I went into the office today to introduce Lliam to everyone. We heard lots of cooing and congrats. I met a friend and mom for Vietnamese for lunch. Mmmmm noodles!

Nothing really new is happening in our house, other than new babyness etc. Jos and I bought a Wii, and Anthony has continually beat us in bowling! Quite fun being beaten by a 3 yr old! I figure that if I really get into the Wii, I can lose some more weight and gain some of my muscle back. It was sad to realize that I lost a ton of muscle weight with this pregnancy. I will be buying some handweights tomorrow so I can start my toning routine.

I can't wait to start losing the flab. I feel like a squishy milk cow right now. Oh well, the sacrifices we make as mothers to bring children into this world. Its all worth it!

Booyah!

Lliam Avery finally arrived, May 24th @ 11:28am weighing in at 8lbs 1oz. We are home now, happy, healthy and feeling amazing! I wish they all went that smooth....!!!

A hard passing

Well, its been a rough week. It didn't end very well. My grandmother (my mother's mother) has passed away today. I wish I had a pic to post here, and I'm sure I'll find one somewhere. She was a very elegant lady, mink coats, diamond earings, crystal chandelier type. She loved her family very much. She lost her husband 10 years ago, and had been barely holding on to life since then. So needless to say its been a hard 10 years of slow death, by not eating, sleeping and falling down whenever she could.

Mom raced outta the house here at 6:30pm to speed down to Cardston to say goodbye to her mother at 10:00pm (when she passed). I can't help compounding my guilt here. Mom dropped everything in Cardston to be with me and help me have the baby (If she was still in Cardston, she'd make sure her mother was eating and staying healthy, or even just spending more time with her before her inevitiable passing) and still no baby, and she only had like an hour to be with her mother before she passed away.

I hate funerals, they make me so uncomfortable. I hate death, its not something I can control. I hope I have the baby before the funeral, because I can't really do much travelling in the condition I"m in.

The one thing that is bringing me peace is that Grandma is now with Grandpa again. I'm sure it was quite the reunion.

Rest in peace Grandma Schaffer.

Still Pregnant

I know this thing doesn't last forever...I really don't want to post this, but so many people are wondering...I'm still pregnant! I will post when I've given birth w/ pictures and everything.

I feel depressed, and want to cry all day long.

I think this kid either hates me, and trying to punish me.
This kid loves me and wants to stay in there as much as possible.
Or Heavenly Father just wants to keep him a little longer up there because he so special.

All I know is that I'm still pregnant, and sad, and tired, and tired of all this guilt. Guilt that my mother sped all the way up here to help out with the baby, guilty that my sweetest girlfriend is watching Anthony for me, while we "think" we are in labor. I think she's got enough on her plate, like I need to add to it. The least I can do is produce a baby.


I'm bawling as I right this, I'm too emotional to finish.

4min apart!

I went out to dinner with Jos, and it was just him and me. I haven't had a date with him in YEARS!!! It was disrupted by going into labor. VERY RAPIDLY...I'm laboring at home as much as I can...before we go to the hospital.

Wish me luck

A May Long Hike

I figured we'd spend the day as a family trying to expand the family (ie, bringing the labor on) by taking a family hike to Nose Hill Park. Anthony was less than enthused, and I was VERY uncomfortable, but we all managed, and actually had a great time. At the very begining AJ was pretty excited....see below picture of him running ahead of me. Yeah, he's that little grey blob in the distance....That sorta changed quickly.

Anthony sorta boobed out by the middle, and wanted to be carried. It being his first hike, I didn't think he did too bad. We made him walk on his own until we were ready to turn around and head back. This is his boob face he likes to make for me and daddy.

Anthony must have been sitting on something prickly in that photo. LOL

SOOOO CUTE!!!

I hope we get some action soon. LOL I'm gettig really puffy! The 19th has always held a special place in our hearts...here's hopin' I get some action tonight. Read into that ALL you like!! Enjoy my video as well....its of AJ thinking he's run to the finish line....he saw the orange fencing, thinking it was the finish line of our hike.

Someone in our house gave Birth!!!

Ok so it wasn't me. It was our very pregnant guppy. She managed to push out 7 little guys that are SOOO CUTE. I'll have pics ready in a bit. We are just getting ready for church.

Maybe this full moon might bring me some good news!

No baby yet....

Well, for those of you who are caring to keep track of my insane last few weeks of pregnancy, I am NOT, repeat, NOT in labor. Baby just wants to stay in there forever!! Not sure why though. I'm hot. I'm cranky. I'm loud. It sucks. I've really tried not to be the complainy pregnant lady, but these last few weeks have forced me into it! OKOK, its really not that bad. I've had such smooth sailing up til now, and this is just a killer. The heat is bad in our house, and the portable A/C unit we want to buy is on back order until the middle of June....after the baby is born. So I'll have to deal with cold baths and puffy fingers.

Everyone in my household is sick. Jos has been fighting and losing the battle with his sinuses. Spring time does that to people I hear...but who knows. Anthony has the "sniffies" as he calls it, and I'm, well....not sleeping, so that makes me cranky. Our next door neighbors had a may long party last night, and it went until around 5am. At 4:30am, was when they decided to have a screaming/fighting match, complete with slamming doors etc. It was hard to get back to sleep after an adrenaline rush like that. I want my old neighbors back. They at least only fought once a month!

We bought a hose and a sprinkler today, and Anthony just loooved trying it out. What a funny kid. I just love my boys.

I'm counting down the days when my girlfriend Robyn shows us her baby belly pictures! She's having a girl, and I'm absolutely inside out happy for her!!!! I miss my friends from BC, and I really want to make a road trip out there and say hi to whoever is still left.

Nothing else is new, I'm enjoying being home now, and not having to go to work. Now I can clean the house, (HAHA like its getting done right now, its too hot to clean) and prepare more for baby.

I'll keep this thing updated when I'm leaving for the hospital.

1cm down, 9 more to go

Yesterday was eventful. I was having contractions all day, pretty steady. Then they'd just drop off, and nothing for about 2 or 3 hours, then they'd start up again, be pretty steady...then drop. I tell ya! I'm done! I've tried almost everything to get things goin' and move it along, but to no avail. It sucks. Knowing you are *this* close, and still nothing. I have been feeling pretty good today. No contractions at all. I went to see the doctor and the nurse said my cervix was thin, and I was 1cm dilated already. Nice....an improvement. I didn't gain any weight this week from last....fewf! So for a grand total of 13 lbs gained for this pregnancy is pretty nice I'd say.

I just wish things would just move along. I really want to meet my little person! I guess I should just relax, let things happen, and be grateful that I'm getting as much sleep as I am right now. Things will be different in a few days, and I can't ever get these times back.

Sometimes writting through my frustrations really helps my crazy rantings! Seriously, I can feel a difference on how I have been writting.

My last day of work is on thursday! YAY no more COLE INTERNATIONAL! I know I will be missed. Its nice to know that you are one of THE best people they've had. I've been told so on numerous occassions. Its just one of those things that make you feel special, and needed. Stay-at-home motherhood is something that I've been looking forward to for years, and I hope I can take on this new role smoothly, and with much energy. I'll need it.

Here's a fat belly picture to gawk at.

A Saturday of cleaning before baby comes

I spent most of today srubbing walls and mopping floors, and vacuuming! Anthony was such a great help. He loves to be involved with whatever mommy is doing. I feel pretty accomplished, but I know there is a ton of cleaning to be done. At least the walls are washed, and the kitchen and bathroom floors are mopped. I'm getting pretty excited about baby, that may or may not come next week. I'm so tired, but I'm ready. I'm not really thrilled about the labor and delivery, just bringing home baby is what I'm thrilled about most.

We are going out as a family to the wave pool. I love the pool, but I hate the waves. I hate the screaming that happens EVERY time!!! Seriously kids, the waves come every 20 minutes, and its the same every time...do you need to scream? Anywho, Anthony loves the hot tub and the big waterslide. I think I might walk the mile up the steps and give it a try today. Who knows, maybe that will bring on baby. LOL

I posted pictures on my facebook of my baby shower that Cole International thew for me. So if anybody who is reading this will find pics there, as I'm not too familiar with posting pictures here yet. Just gimme a little bit, and I'll get there.

I'm feeling pretty weird today, not sick, just weird. Well see if its just the excitedness of baby, or if it actually is baby time. Here's wishful thinking.

Post Number Two

Not much to report here on day two of my blogging. I'm not quite "into" it yet, and not very creative, but I'm sure I'll get there and have tons to say and show off. LOL yeah right.

Today felt very unproductive. We all slept in, from staying out pretty late the night before at Debbi's. It was so worth it though. I was really glad to be there for her. Work is so slow, and I have nothing to do most of the day, but surf the internet.

I went to see the doc yesterday, and he's confirmed that I'm actually a week a head of schedule, and that he's planning on "stripping membranes" this coming tuesday. I've read online that this can either get things really movin' or nothing at all. I don't really care at this point, as long as this baby isn't 10 lbs!!

I have to get my house clean and organized before any of the baby craziness happens and I feel so overwhelmed with what I need to get accomplished. I'm tired at the end of the day, I'm trying to keep Anthony better, I'm constantly finding dead fish in the fish tank (By the way, thank you to Jos, who fishes them out for me and takes care of the dead ones). I think that if my belly wasn't in the way, I'd actually get more things done.

Almost over right?

I'm typing as I have Anthony sleeping next to me in my bed. I really don't allow kids to sleep with me, but he's just not breaking his fever, and I want to make sure that he'll be ok through the night. I want him to get better. No one wants to deal with a sick kid AND a newborn. Crazy talk that is.

From the sick bed - my first post

Today is a day that most people look forward to, their own birthday. Though I am still excited that I survived until my 30th Birthday, I just wish I could have stayed 29. Many friends have told me that their 30's were the most monumental, as they were wiser and more mature. I'd like to think that there are many parts of me that will never grow up. Maybe I just need to take this sleep day I'm taking from work, and just reflect how I can stop complaining that I actually AM as old as I say I am. Ok, rephrasing....30 is not old....per my friends and family. I just need to keep saying that to myself.

Baby appt today, so I'm looking forward to doc telling me that I'll have a smooth and fast labor and delivery. Right? Right?

Tonight is also my sweetest girlfriend Debbi's TV debut! Yes, if any of you who know about my blog I started like 10 minutes ago, should tune in tonight @6pm on Slice. Good times.

Well here you have it folks, my first blog!